If I planted a flower each time I thought of you, my garden will bloom forever.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010 10:57:00 PM

This fear feels like it's instilled in me.

I hate this feeling. I don't know why, recently I've been thinking so much about it.

Penny of thoughts huh? Yes.

Ever since ... I've been thinking a lot. Afraid of losing you in my life.

I really don't like the feeling of.. losing someone i love.

8:14:00 PM

What's with the worry?

6:12:00 PM

Afraid of losing someone you love?

Yes i am.

Yet i have no courage to tell him.

I'm another fool. Isn't it?

12:26:00 AM

Alpha's chalet.

I'm gonna to miss every single shopping outings. When Dawn and Bryan starts school.

Which means, we'll have lesser time for each other. D:

Gonna miss you all. ):

Alpha chalet was pretty much awesome. :)

Thanks bala for organising such an awesome chalet. You know, without his friend, we would be paying even more. So.. whatever is it, thanks for those who came. Making the chalet possible and memoriable. :)

The chalet was full of laughters because Kimleong has lots of endless jokes. Even when he's very tired, 0% energy, he still tried his best to make all of us laugh. Exactly like how he entertained me 2 years back in nat camp! Never change uh?

I wanted to sleep yesterday, but i realise i couldn't go to bed. I was staring blank, and thinking. For that 2 hours, was a good time of reflection. And, yup. Lots of crazy stuff. Imagine the guys was so steady that they even went to swim at what? 5am?! Hahaha. I went to the pool with them, took photo. Hoping time will pass faster.

And back to chalet, stone again. Hahaha. \o/ I'm a stonner.

Had truth or dare or rather, dare or dare.

You dont have a choice. They'll decide what you'll have to do when you get Aces Spade.

So, that moment, i was hoping not to get Aces Spade!

I was like, -.-ll caught getting an aces spade.

Which means, i'll have to dance bad romance. And bryan video-ed the whole process of me going crazy.

My god.. But, good time of laughing~ Because, i pulled zul's hair.

After the chalet, all of us was so tired.

We were so tired that we were in the K.O-ed mood.

After the chalet, accompanied Bryan to Tampines mall to check out his shoes and his mac book pro's cover.

But we were too early, and too tired to wait for the shops to open.

Head home straight. The East west journey was insane. Pack to the maxxxxx.

Even when a lady stepped on my toes, i didn't react until she turn and said sorry.

Too tired to react to everything~~

Goodnight!

I want a continuation of that dream i dreamt this afternoon!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010 12:18:00 PM

New updated wish list..

Alright, i shall not talk about how alpha chalet and stuff right now.

Right now, i'm more eager to update my new wishlist!

1. That Flora Jansport bag for school. (Need or a Want?)

2. My Macbook. (IT'S GOD DAMN A NEED)

3. Battery Grip (It's a want.)

4. 50mm F1.8 Lens(It's a want)

5. External Flash (It's a want)

For this month...

1. $40 for tickets for 2510.

2. $79 for that Jansport bag, that is big enough for my school!

I'll be happy to settle this 2 things by the end of my holidays. :))

Monday, March 29, 2010 12:15:00 AM

It's amazing to have photography created on earth.

Credits: Lightedpixel.

Brenda And Satish, is sucha loving couple.

Awww.. this photos makes me feel so :):)

Yipee Yipee!

Gahdam, I can't wait to get married.

I am crazy, Yes i am. :D

Don't you think, being with your love one everyday is a blessing?

Alright, shall not think about getting married anymore, there's 7 more years to my ideal age to get married.

What's more, i have not complete my studies, i have not work.

Income is unstable and shitty stuff.

Oh yes! I thought of getting a fish eye lens for my DSLR.

But well, for now, i wanna settle my 25-10 anniversary tickets before i spend more.

And also, i wanna get a new bag for school. Bagpack!

Gah, save money. save money.

Be determined!

Goodnight people.

Alpha chalet is tonight!

Saturday, March 27, 2010 1:00:00 AM

Charissa's crazy pledge.

Charissa's Pledge: I from the one and only soul sistas crew pledge alligance to all our homies from our cribs,to be crazy only in the night and come up with silly ryhmes to annoy the shit out of other members. We will be fully prepared for any upcoming battle,battle of what you ask,the battle between sista hood. And will kick the ass of whoever that surpasses our way,and kiss the feet of others who love us for who we are. WE ARE THE 3EMO-MUSKETEERS.

PS: if you kiss someone's feet. please brush your teeth.

12:26:00 AM

ILOVEYOUGUYS.

Funny to see shasha drunk,

Funny conversations,

Funny people,

ILUPDUPYOUALL.

Friday, March 26, 2010 11:00:00 PM

Tell me how much you love her.

Guys out there, who thinks that they can friggin fool around with our feelings, you better watch it.

Whatever comes around goes around. The amount of hurt you've given to whoever, that fucking amount of hurt will come back to you once again.

I never want to see this kind of guy messing around with my girlfies at all.

_l_ you guys out there. FUCK YOU ALL.

Thursday, March 25, 2010 11:23:00 PM

A Fun and Exciting Class Chalet huh?

Hello! I'm glad I'm back from class chalet.

The class chalet was, disastrous. I have never encounter a chalet with so many drunkards. And, classmates encountered those spirits. But well, it's up to us, to believe it or not. Because we didn't saw it ourselves. So we can't say anything. Honestly, at one point of time, i thought of cabbing home. But I didn't because Charissa, Kristina, Shasha, Nadiah, Brandon and Jasmie was there. It's like, the 8 of us including Aret was taking care of those drunkards the whole time. And, yes.. They got themselves so drunk that they don't even know what they are doing. D:

It's really scary to see them get so drunk and quarreling in the middle of the night. Really bad one.

Was wide awake the whole morning, trying to ensure that there won't be anything happening. You know, sometimes, people got so drunk that they don't even know about their own action and stuff. The worst thing is, chalet has 2nd level. I was so afraid that those who were drunk would roll down the stairs. Seriously. My god.

Even Brandon, hahahaha. smelling Iskandar's vomit even when he's asleep. When he's sleeping, iskandar jumped up to vomit, brandon would wake up to cover his ears. It's hilarious to see him doing that. I swear.

Anyway,

It was awesome to have bem, alyssa, nicole, charissa, nadiah, kristina, shasha, jasmie, brandon, cyntherea around. You guys = (Y)!

Crazy comes with you. Lupdup you all!

Goodnight. I love you.

11:32:00 AM

my bed is calling!

class chalet was a disaster.
But nevertheless, it was fun with Bem, alyssa, nic, charissa, Kris, Nad, Shasha, Brandon. :D
Especially, the part when Shasha was completely drunk. It was mad crazy. A detailed post later when Ireplenish my sleep! It's crazy taking care of drunkards. I swear it's not easy. It's very very tiring.
Alright, time for bed. Be back soon! Night!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010 11:09:00 PM

I.AM.GOING.TO.MISS.YOU!

For the next 3 days,

i'll be away for my class chalet.

TEXTMETEXTME.CAUSEIWILLBEMISSINGYOU. :D

1:23:00 AM

Your fight is my fight.

Justin Bieber - Common Denominator.

It fills the air,
And I fall in love with you,
All over again,
Ooh,
You're the light that faced the sun,
In my world,
I'd face a thousand years of pain
For my girl.

Out of all the things in life,
That I could fear,
Uh
The only thing that would hurt me,
Is if you weren't here,
Woah

I don't want to go back
To just being one half of the equation
You understand what I'm sayin'?

Girl with out you I'm lost
Can't face this focus at heart
Between me and love
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh
You're the common denominator, oh, yeah, woah

Before your love was low
Now you're just my height, aye
We chase the game that would put
My cot in the side

Broken heart rise up to say
Love is alive
You and I would stand
To be multiplied, yeah

Out of all the things in life,
That I could fear,
Uh
The only thing that would hurt me,
Is if you weren't here,
Woah

I don't want to go back
To just being one half of the equation
You understand what I'm sayin'?

Girl with out you I'm lost
Can't face this focus at heart
Between me and love
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh
You're the common denominator, oh, yeah, woah

I'm never ever not,
Without your touch,
Every kiss that you give,
It gives me heart,
And to all the heart it can,
Jealous females hate it,
I'ma hold it down for you,

For you, woah, oh woah,
Common denominator,
Oh, yeah, woahh,
I don't wanna to go back,
Half of the equation, woah woah yeah,
Common denominator
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
Common denominator
Oh, yeah, woah

Just a fraction of your love fills the air
And I'd fall in love with you all over again yeah

1:08:00 AM

Tell me how..

How hard it is to stop the heart from loving?

As much as hard to stop the eye from blinking

The more you control it,

the more it hurts.

12:58:00 AM

I miss my best friend.

Trust me, i really miss you.

I miss you being irritating, i miss you being here talking to me.

You know, best friend is there whenever you need him/her. It's true. I know if he's here in singapore, he will definitely use his irritating-ness to cheer me up. Make me laugh.

The time difference of singapore and USA is way too big, we're unable to contact because of the time difference. If hadn't the time difference, i would definitely skype with him all day.

Come back soon, best friend. Trina miss you so much, she really mean it. D':

I can't stay at home all day to talk to you, because i had an appointment with my friends the other day. I'm sorry..

thanks for being here with me all these while when i needed you,

thanks for being here to listen to my sorrows,

thanks for being here for me all these while. :D

12:56:00 AM

Can you believe, TRINA is freezing in her room, because she is wearing a tank top in her air-coned room?

Monday, March 22, 2010 11:32:00 PM

Fuck this shit. Fuck my life.

My daily allowance is $12 per day.

$12 includes lunch, and also it includes my fucking expensive art materials. Yes i spend a lot of money.

Do you think i wanna spend like at least $500 on my fucking art materials? I could have used that money for my camera lens, my obsessions. But hey, how says $12 is a lot when i fucking need to use them to buy those drawing blocks, and those stuff? And i see no point explaining so much to you. Bloody fucker, in the first place. Fucking check your wallet and think where the fuck your money ran before you come to me and claim that i took your fucking money. Don't fucking tell me sorry after you recalled where your fucking 20bucks went.

And yes,

do you know what i upset and angry with?

I QUARREL WITH MY SISTER BECAUSE OF $3.80.

Yes, laugh all you want. I don't know what the fuck's wrong with her.

Fucking stop going to my drawer and take my money. I'm blogging this is not to let you feel paiseh about it.

BUT I AM BLOGGING BECAUSE I'M FUCKING QUARRELING WITH YOU BECAUSE OF $3.80.

I AM POOR.

I AM SORRY FOR NOT BEING A RICH SISTER.

I AM WRONG FOR BORROWING MONEY FROM YOU.

OH, SORRY FOR PAYING YOU COINS.

I'M DEFINITELY NOT PAISEH ABOUT IT. BECAUSE I AM REALLY BROKE.

AND, I DON'T THINK I AM A FUCKING SPOILT CHILD ALTHOUGH I AM THE YOUNGEST.

One, i don't ask my parents for money for my personal desires.

Two, i don't ask them to pay anything if i can afford them.

Three, things that are unaffordable, i won't even thing about it.

Four, i fucking saved up for my personal desires.

Five, i don't watch movies because i feel that movies is a waste of money.

Six, i saved up for my fucking hobby.

Seven, i don't get you to pay anything, except for the $3.80.

SO IF MY PARENTS DIDN'T COMPLAIN, WHY ARE YOU HELLA COMPLAINING?

I AM IN MY OWN HEADPHONE WORLD.

GOODBYE. FUCK MY LIFE. FUCK ME. FUCK EVERYTHING IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

Labels: There isn't any trust.

Sunday, March 21, 2010 11:45:00 PM

Burn Sunday Burn

Musical Rehearsal for 25-10 Anniversary burnt my sunday.

Time past so fast that we run thru 2-3 times only. But well, i think it's getting better.. except for our stunts.

We didn't manage to get our stunts up though. Stunts that we used to be able to do it smoothly are the stunts that we can't do it anymore. We need more practice, definitely. Gonna make it a success no matter what!!

I don't know why, but i felt extremely drained. I need plenty of rest. Like i said, this coming week is gonna to be hectic. Alright, Trina shall go to bed now! She's not in her best mood and she's bloody having her cramp. It's so @#$%^&()(*&^%$#@!!! I want my joy of my life to cheer me up. I dont know what i want, but i just want someone to be there.. to talk to me.

And, i know, no one's gonna to there.

Go to bed now trina. Sleep your worries away.

Goodnight world, i hope tomorrow's gonna to be a better day.

Labels: i wished you were here with me thru it all.

12:18:00 AM

Obsessions.

Can you believe? It's freaking 3am in the morning, and i'm like blogging/uploading/editing some photos. It's insane i know. But these polaroid/photos makes me really happy, because the 2 joys of my life are inside them. :D

Yes, Shoes above, is all 3 that i bought today, to welcome my 3 weeks holiday. Does it mean that one week = 1 pair of shoes? Hell no! But yes, i have the urge to spend on shoes, that's why i'm spending so much on shoes. But hmmm, For a pair of heel, it's a want it's not a need though. But hey, it's cheap! All the 3 shoes i bought is like, on sales and not of the original price. :D

Outings with Bryan and Dawn and will never be bored. Because half the time we're like, photospamming, keeping ourself entertained. :)) It's awesome.

I'm going to turn my notice board to a polaroid board instead. Hahaha. YES I AM!! :))

I'm so happy with the polaroids. I'm just gonna to save up to get the films. Spam photos and make my polaroid notice board. Yay, new shoes, new shoes!

& Thanks, kind soul, for helping me to tag the photos. & also flooding the whole of my FB while i was rotating the photos.

Good job trina! You've cleared the photos that are supposed to be upload/tag/rotated and transfered to portable harddisk! :)) Worry no more, go catch your sleep before you die during your rehearsal tomorrow!! :D

Next week...

Mon, meeting ally and bem to spotlight for our toyRus bag decorations.

Tues, going down to the hospital, grandma's having an operation.

Wed-Fri, Class Chalet.

Sat, REST.REST.REST.

Sun, On site 25-10 anniversary rehearsal.

Following week...

Mon-Tues, Alpha Chalet.

It's gonna to be helly exciting!! :))

Goodnight, i really need to go to bed like now!

Rehearsal tomorrow is going to burn my sunday. D:

Labels: T.R.I.N.A. IS A HAPPY BITCH.

Saturday, March 20, 2010 10:50:00 AM

let it go.

If you have the heart, you wouldn't do this shit. It's okay, Trina. Let it go. Let it go..
So not in the mood for every single thing.
Holidays ain't holidays. One, so what if it's holiday? We're still bombarded with all the re-dos anyway. I have a total of 10. And one A3 drawing is Damn time consuming. Two, rebels are so not going to meet up as 5. Because, moron and Siwei's having school while we're having holidays. Three, good job, holidays come, Trina broke.
But holidays, the only things I look forward to is class chalet and alpha chalet and our genting trip. :D

9:40:00 AM

keep all of those high hopes to yourself.

Friday, March 19, 2010 10:51:00 PM

8:35:00 PM

hello love, i love you.

sometimes, good times passes by so quickly.

Good times doesn't last long. But hoping that each day will be alright..

7:42:00 PM

HOLIDAYS, MORE THAN READY!!

6:09:00 PM

Marriage.

I wanna get married with the one I love and the one who loves me by 25 years old.

And, Bem is so getting married next year lah. Hahahaha. Powerful. (:

SALUTE TO BEM!

Monday, March 15, 2010 9:56:00 PM

imisscarolynchiaweiling):

Yes, I miss Carolyn Chia Wei Ling so much.

It's like less than a month, and.. i miss her like hell already. )):

9:56:00 PM

Let this moment stay forever..

I want happy moments to stay forever.

Happy birthday Jeff! Hope you enjoy the day! :))

And, I love my polaroid photos. :))

9:56:00 PM

iLOVEyou.

-iloveyou-

Okay, school is .. pretty much awesome these days.

You know, crazy people, crazy topics everyday, and also, my spastic budday. :)

It's just .. My mind is turned off for school. You know, it's tiring to travel all the way from tampines to sembawang and then sembawang back to tampines. I am tired, i am really really tired.

I haven't been *steady* with them to hang out late because i am really tired. If i were alittle more hype, i would join them for sure, laughing my ass and making noise all the time. Heh.

Got home, obviously, dad's Menopause is bad.

I went out after dinner to get chinese ink and my polaroid films. Before i went out, My dad was so damn irritating. Because he was scolding me, asking why am i spending so much money and stuff. I told him, that if i could stay at home and rest i would. But it's because i have no choice but to go out to get the chinese ink. He went on and on saying if i continue to talk back, he's going to beat me and stuff. In my heart i was like, FUCK menopause. Seriously.. I really cannot stand it. Like i said, i never like people to question what i do when i know what i am doing. All i need is your support and not your unreasonable scoldings. My parents went out, and came back quarreling. It was nonsensical.

Just because my mom wants to drive the car out and fetch grandpa to the doctors', he's making a big fuss. HOW WOULD HE FEEL IF MY MOM DON'T ALLOW HIM TO FETCH MY GRANDMA TO THE DOCTORS'?! It's the fucking same feeling. Seriously, nothing from his mouth is awesome.

GAH, whatever lah. I'm just gonna to do my work, and concentrate on what i'm doing and heck everything.

I... I don't know how the hell i should be feeling.

He can make me feel happy, he can make me feel disappointed, he can make me feel angry, he can make me feel really sad, he can make me feel anxious, he can make me feel nervous.

It seem like, he has the ability to control my emotions. I don't know why, but yes.

He has the key to my heart already. I don't know why, but days when i was really moody, His name appearing, my heart start smiling.

Sometimes, i don't know how long will this feeling stay.

Will it stay forever? Or is it temporary? Forever doesn't seem to be happening in my life.

FML YES, FML.

Gonna meet Ann and Jeff for dinner tomorrow. :))

Celebrating Jeff's birthday tomorrow! ((:

-Goodnight, amour-

9:56:00 PM

트리나 사랑 브라이언

9:56:00 PM

Self-declare or not to self-declare?

Had napfa test today. It was seriously a killer.

I am really feeling damn sleepy now. I went into the stoned mood already. ):

But well,

PROMISED Kristina to go to school and i shall go. :)

Because Trina will not leave Spastic budday alone in school!!

Then, She put her fb status:

Kristina Chua AWWWW...TRINA IS SO SWEEEEEET.I LUB DUB LUB DUB YOU LOTS LOTS WORHX!!♥ HAHAHAHHAHAHA

School days like that will never get bored, but of course, energy will drain out easily.

Trina shall sleep early tonight. Not to think so much.

I'm feeeling pretty moody now. Probably because I am not having sufficient sleep these days.

&& it seemed like you don't care about me anymore. I really miss you. I was hoping that it was you.

But sad enough, it wasn't.

9:56:00 PM

Screw Every thing that's happening right now.

I am feeling tired. I am feeling upset. I am feeling pissed off.

I can't wait for holidays to come. I need a break. For myself, for everything. I hate it when i got home, and then i got scolded unreasonably. What's with all the scoldings? You know, i hate it when i get home after a long day, and i still have to get scolded from you. I'm not someone who can entertain all this shit. I can't entertain you anymore. Each time when you flare, i would too. I'm going to heck it already. Way too unreasonable.

You think i want to smell lacquer? I just want to fucking fix my drawings and get my grades. Not to smell the shit. Seriously, people do things for a reason. Don't question what i do.

Dad, just give me your support in everything i do, that could be the greatest gift in my life. No to be there to pull me down when i am trying to achieve things in life. It's seriously way too nonsensical. =/

And, To that bastard.

Who are you to say adam's a gay? I love him for who he is. Jolly well STFU.

AND, even he's a gay, he is much talented that you, much hotter than you, much handsome than you.

SO. SHUT THE HELL UP BLOODY ASS HOLE.

Napfa tomorrow, It's sure to be a killer.

Goodnight, I shall go to bed soon.

tomorrow may be a better day, i hope.

9:56:00 PM

ILOVEADAM.