Sometimes, i felt like i've given up already. Each time when i think of going to Sec 5, it dreads me. I don't know why, but i don't feel happy in sec 4. Don't even have to mention sec 5. If i could get into ITE, going into the course i like, Why not?

Please accept the fact that i don't really like forcing myself studying. But hey, do i even have a choice. I feel so down, like seriously. Why are people looking down on ITE? it's like like it's the end. Probably it's the parent's perception, and the child have to suffer under their perceptions. It really sucked. You know what? I rather go into the ITE course, that has photography in it. After all, i'm doing something that i like. It's hands on, and i need hands on stuff.

I don't know, but i felt like i'm already losing. Where's the motivation where i used to have? Where has it gone to? I felt like i'm losing them more and more, day by day.. )':

Whenever i think of my upcoming sucky months, I felt real down. You know what? So many people is away from me. What's this? Dad&mom is going on holidays next week, this week Rachel&family is going on holidays, stef will be away for Asian para games, then attachment. What the hell? Why is everyone everywhere..? and i'm here all alone?

All i want for now, study harder. Just merely pass my n'lvl. Do something that i like doing, best is stay at home be tai tai! hahaha. How i wish, SCHOOL SUCKS TREMENDOUSLY!