If I planted a flower each time I thought of you, my garden will bloom forever.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009 10:42:00 PM

我还记得我们的约定.♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

The title of this post is pretty simple.

The promises that we've set isn't fulfilled yet anyway. Hmmm.

But i still remember each and everyone of them, clearly in my head.

Some photos are being posted here. Those happy times that i had in my 2009. (:

Flay day, Chinese new year, NDL boccia, Gb day, Farewell dinner for carolyn, sentosa with jovin/janice/pearly, Kelong trip.

These are the people whom i enjoy being with, i love their presence, i appreciate their presence.

I really feel so sick of everything. I feel so stressed out, i feel so down, i feel so tired.

Most importantly,

My heart is feeling fear..

Really, i never feel so scared before. The stress that i'm going thru right now, i can't cope.

I'm afraid that i might disappoint my parents. I'm afraid of Failing my N'lvl.

I'm afraid of going to ITE. )': I'm feeling pretty scared, pretty upset.

Tell me where were you when i needed you most.

I've been feeling so tired. I don't know what i will do in future, i don't know what i should do. I don't know. really don't know. I feel lost, just like you leaving my in the jungle. All alone, feeling lost. I don't like this feeling of getting lost. Lost in insecure, Lost in everything.

Anyway, Dad.

I need a word of comfort instead of sentence after sentence of discouragement. I don't need that. I seriously feel the stress already. So what if i'm here blogging and not studying? Hey, come on. I need a break. I really do. I'm not a robot. I can't be home 24/7 studying. I can't. My brain is malfunctioning. Trust me, it stucks at times. All these while i have been studying. But so what? Do you see it? No you don't. all you do is scolding at me because i'm not studying. Alright. I had enough OF RANTING. Sorry people. I just have to rant. Family's giving me quite a couple of problem. Apart from stressing me to study, other stuff is quite disturbing too. )':

If there's a choice, i chose to be truthful and daring a little.

Right now, time to endure these shit.

Anyway, it's getting real late.

Tmr, it's my best friend's birthday.

Dhineash Sivakumar Gopal Krisnan Chetiar's birthday.

Although he has been really irritating when he's around. But, i pretty miss him when he's gone. He's still the bestest friend i ever met. Oh no, it's the bestest indian friend i ever have. It's quite a pity that he's in USA now! If not, i'm sure birthday bash etc will come after him! Hahaha.

Happy birthday! (:

Another good friend of mine,

Mr Luqman Hakim.

Good day! Pontank school tmr ah... Hor hor..! Hahahaha. anyway, happy birthday!(:

Goodnight & Goodday! (:

Have a blessed night people!

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