treena

2010-04-14T02:15:00.001+08:00

You see how much we've went thru?

You see how much we've grown?

I miss you girls, badly.. ):

Goodbye, bad day.

2010-04-14T01:04:00.002+08:00

Bad day so...? You're still required to go thru 24 hours!

No matter how bad my day is, I'll now face every single good and bad things with a smile.

The very least, i know things will be better whenever i faced it with a smile.

I'm feeling really really upset with things now. Today was the worst day ever. I've never felt so unlucky and stuff.

I really really thank God for bringing me through this toughest time. At one point of time of today, i was so infuriated with myself. And things got worst even when i was home.

I know God is with me during my toughest time, today.

Fred not, it will be over soon, i hope.

Alright, there's drawing test tomorrow. Time for bed.

Yay. I got my photo changed! It's one of my favourite shot among the 40,000th. ((:

goodnight people. i'm off. Wish me luck for tomorrow's still life drawing test!

"The earth and every good thing in it belongs to the Lord and is yours to enjoy." - 1 Corinthians 10:26

Thanks Austin for sharing this verse with me.

Whatever.

2010-04-12T22:51:00.002+08:00

Please, don't talk nonsense to me when I'm sick.

Me sick = In the very unhappy mood.

Whatever things you say, I'll ignore.

Because I swear I never want to entertain this nonsense anymore.

Seriously, I trust you, no more.

Whatever lah uh. It's okay. It's really okay. NO IT'S NOT OKAY.

alright. alright. alright.

breathe in, breathe out.

everything's gonna be okay.

trina shall do her bible study tonight. and then,

trina shall go sleep early tonight. trina shall go brainstorm on what she shall do on her recycled paper bags.

and most importantly,

get over with things that are unhappy!

Trust no more..

2010-04-12T22:39:00.001+08:00

Random thoughts..

2010-04-12T01:14:00.004+08:00

Just a hint of your smile, can make me feel fine again.

This is how important and how much you meant to me.

Promise that you'll hold my hand and never let it go. Because i'll do the same too.

I'll hold your heart, never let it go.

Will that day even be here? Please tell me that, there'll be one day whereby you'll be holding my heart and my hand. Telling me that there'll only be me in your world.

I wish i could experience taking the teacup ride with you.

Because that feeling of the teacup ride is:

There is only me in your world and there's only you in my world.

And that is what i want. I am someone who never like to share someone whom I love.

Wedding Dress by Taeyang

2010-04-12T01:13:00.000+08:00

[English]
Some say it's not over 'till it's over
Guess this is really over now
There's something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen

When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make me feel fine again
To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz then we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Oh, please leave him and come to me

Baby, please don’t take his hand
Coz you should be my lady
I've been waiting for you for so long
Please look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you're wearing
It's not me (--> it should've been me)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy

Now I have no more tears left to cry
When I’m by myself I talk to you like you're here
I’ve felt so restless every night
Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen
I close my eyes and dream an endless dream
Please leave him and come to me

Baby, don’t take his hand when he comes to you
Coz you should be my lady
I've been waiting for you for so long
Look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you're wearing
It's not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

Please be happy with him
So that I can forget you
Please forget how miserable I looked
It's going to be unbearably hard for me
For a long while to come

No, oh

For such a long time
I lived in an illusion like a fool
She is still smiling
So brightly at me

The wedding dress you're wearing
It's not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

Yayness..

2010-04-11T23:54:00.003+08:00

I will not give in anymore, because I had more than enough. I swear..

It's not about me not being nice or whatever. But hey, don't you think, if you show no interest, why should I entertain you right?

I really don't give a damn whether or not you're angry with me or upset with me.

Loving someone who doesn't loves her takes a lot of effort. I shan't put in effort in you anymore.

Because, I'll put in effort in my work and excel in it. The very least, i feel happy doing my drawings..

-Genting trip-

I had 4 times of the swing ride. I really like the feeling of going up and down.

It's just like, In life, there're times of ups and downs..

And well, right now, i'm facing the lowest point of my life.

Dirt Biking back in 2009.

I miss the vibration of the bike.

Today marks the end of rehearsals for 2510.

I feel that, yes, God bring me back to him thru 2510.

Say yes to carefree sundays! ((:

Before me go to bed....

2010-04-11T02:59:00.004+08:00

S$ 2,362.30

500GB Hard-disk, 4GB RAM, Apple Care, Microsoft for Apple.

I'll save up for you.

Wait for me, i'll be saving up to get you baby!

THIS IS A NEED, NOT A WANT.

School's starting in a day's time!

2010-04-11T02:33:00.002+08:00

I am... Officially sick. Just 2 days before my school start, i had fever, flu, cough and sore throat. How not nice of fever to come by to visit me every after trip. Perth was also like that, Genting again.

Should have healed my mom's advice to take the H1N1 jab man.

And, last night was an emotional night.

Shan't talk about it anymore since i've chosen to give up instead of giving in.

Today was, uperly Alamak.

Had fever and stuff. Wasn't in my best mood. Everything was like so xyz..

I went to secondary school in the morning and bought my 2510 tickets for my sister and mummy. Sit in for the enrolment rehearsal. Good to see my dearest Ms Lui Meiting. ((:

And had lunch with Ms junn, Joanne, Lirong and Nydia. Headed to library and popular.

Went back home, was just rotting in front of my poor acer.

Talking to dawn was the best part. I'M HIREDD! Boss Dawn's wedding photos shall be taken in the farm by me, background shall be all the pigs and animals oinking at the back. How KAWAII is that?

After that, was hesitating whether i should accompany Stef to bishan, after a long hesitation, i decided to go because she's driving and going to the library. Managed to borrow 6 books. Walked around in J8, bought a printer for Daniel, headed to his place, helped him to set up. By then, i was already fully dead. Feeling breathless and cold. Shivering away. And then headed back home after helping them to set up.

&&& i've decided to get a macbook. Hopefully i'll be able to upgrade the hardisk to 500GB instead of a 250GB macbook. I shall tell my mom about it because sooner or later, i'll still have to get one. Hopefully by june i'll be able to get it. And i'll edit photos all day and stuff. Yay!

Anyway, Genting trip was amazing.

I didn't know that spaceshot isn't that scary! ((:

Will blog up those photos asap.

And, amazingly, i did 3 drawings today despite being very sick.

One apple, one pear, and one hand sketch.

I think i do more work when i'm sick. But fever is really very very very uncomfortable.

I swear i'll go get my jab soon. So that i won't fall sick so easily. I wanna to be healthy me! ((:

Alright, Final Rehearsal for 25-10 tomorrow! And then, i'll say bye to 2510 and hi to my lovely sundays.

5months of effort put into the musical/anniversary. From, starting to sing awfully, to starting to dance pretty well.

(Y) thumbs up! Mom and stef will be going to the anniversary which makes me feel uper excited too! :))

Monday is going to be Term 2 day 1!

Can't wait for Sem 2 to come! Photography & ceramics.

I'll be able to see WB in the morning at 7:30am! Cause i'll be helping out with the TP-ITE's April intake because of TPSC. I'm so excited for school because i can't wait to see my nehnehpoks and spastic partners!! Bem, Alyssa, Nic, Charissa, Nurul, Kristina, Nadiah, Shasha, Jasmie, Brandon. We're all going to laugh our arse out! ((:

Goodnight,

Time to go to bed. I will get over those shitty stuff soon.

And once again, return to my happy go lucky Trina Ang!

two-three-fourth

2010-04-06T21:30:00.002+08:00

Yes! I'm done with down with love already. ((:
And now, i'm watching another hong kong drama that is showing on channel 55.
It's nice!! And i'm at the 6th episode/ 20 episode.

Another few more hours i'll be going to Genting.
So excited because Zac and Fiona's coming along too! Yeah baby~~
I'm going to continue with my hong kong drama already! ((:

Goodnight and take care,
i'll be back on friday.
Another thing is, sweetie Dawn and Siwei sent a text to me today. Really toucheddd. (:
Thanks a lot girls, miss you all! Love you all too! ((:
Especially you you you you you!
Bye, i'll be backkk!

Each day has its own promise of love, forgiveness, joy and success.

2010-04-04T23:30:00.012+08:00

On a saturday morning,

I met my primary school friends!((:

On Good Friday,

I met up with my secondary school friends. ((:

Alright, pretty long post with all the photos uh?

I finally finish uploading all these photos!

Facebook or rather my poor acer laptop is giving me problems..

Can't wait to get a macbook soon.. Gah dam!

(:(:(:

The secret of life is not just to live, but to have something worthwhile to live for.

2010-04-04T01:36:00.004+08:00

The past can't be rewritten, but it can make you stronger.

2010-04-04T01:36:00.001+08:00

Life's a gift! Live it well!

2010-04-04T01:35:00.001+08:00

Don't make a special person miss u too much. Try to keep in touch. Cus missing oftentimes eventually leads to forgetting.

2010-04-04T01:34:00.001+08:00

You cannot always wait for the perfect time, sometimes you must dare to jump.

2010-04-04T01:31:00.000+08:00

Everything happens for a reason. But in reality, we're the ones who give reasons for everything that happens.

2010-04-04T01:20:00.001+08:00

Thank You Lord, for every single thing you've provided for me and you've done for me

-TGIF-

2010-04-03T00:29:00.002+08:00

Firstly,

I really thank god for this day.

For dying for all of our sins. We're not worthy, yet you didn't hesitate to die for us on the Cross.

Lord, thank you for this meaningful day.

Secondly,

Thank.God.It's.Friday!

Today, i met up with my two dearest. It was awesome. It was really awesome.

We had Ayam Penyet, walked around at 313, brought dearest(s) to orchard central's basement to take photos.

We went on and on spamming photos. ((:

I'l upload the photos real soon!

Thirdly,

I'm really very very sorry for not being able to go with my dearest 3.

Primary school mates. I'm really sorry for not being able to spend time with you guys.

I'm really very sorry.)):

WHATAYA WANT FROM ME?

2010-04-02T02:30:00.001+08:00

How far will forgiveness abound?

2010-04-02T01:33:00.002+08:00

Firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARISSA ANNE.

Here wishing you a blessed year. Be happy always.

May you be filled with lots of love everyday.

Trina loves you, and here wishing you a blessed birthday!

Secondly,

I feel like total crap today.

Or rather, tonight.

No particular reason, but i just felt paranoid with all the things happening around me.

Probably because, there isn't any trust between my family and me.

Which really hurts me a lot. Because of those comments,

it's been haunting my family, especially my dad..

Third,

Don't fucking look down on me.

I'll fucking prove you wrong someday.

I am pursuing what I like and what I love.

Who are you to look down on me?

Come straight to my face and tell me about it. There isn't a need for you to talk at the back of me. What's with the worry? There isn't any needs for you to be worry about. So what if I flunk my N'lvls and went to ITE? I'm happy here, studying what I like, and I am putting in effort. And no matter how much effort I've put in, you'll never see it. And there isn't a need to show it to you. I know myself best.

Yeah baby. :)

2010-04-01T16:34:00.002+08:00

Today is.. Pretty awesome? :)

Went back to SSS to get my testimonial. Surprised Siwei, Moron and Farhoney. :)

Siwei was like, OMFG~~ I thought you're not coming?

Me: April's fool surprise ma! :D

I nudged Khairizal when he was at the drink stall. He was like, eh? his eyes went 0.0 when he saw me.

I really really like the expression that Anwar gave lah. :)

Anyway, Yes. After that, sat down with siwei, moron and honey, not forgetting meow meow too!

We talked, laugh about everything. It's time for them to go for their lesson, i sat with Khairizal, Fabian and BJ. Chat a little and stuff. I miss charlene lah. She didnt come to school today! ):

It was time for them to go back to lesson, and then i went off.

Headed to causeway to get my school bag. Initially i thought, the bag was already sold out.

But i went in to the shop, i realised that the bag isn't sold out. And there was a few marks here and there.

So i asked for a 10% because it was the last piece and there abit of stain here and there.

So yup, here i've got! A 10% with my school bag! Happy to the maxxx! :D

Right now, I'm going to draw my fruits~ :)

222th Post!

2010-04-01T01:38:00.002+08:00

Feels so much like 2 years backk! I love those days!

April's Fool Day!

2010-04-01T01:15:00.002+08:00

J: trina, i broke up with terrence lee liao.):

T: why? what happened? you okay?

*Paused awhile*

T: Okay. Shut up, I know. It's april's fool day! Hahahaha!

J: Wah lao, Not fun one.

J: Entertain me while ma..

T: Try harder next year girl. :)

T: Hahahaha.

J: Wah, so long):

Happy April Fool's day lovely.

I hope you all won't get pranked!

and,

I was reminded about the promotion of : Buy the mac, itouch will be yours.

Was talking to Sophia, :):)

I've decided to get my mac & itouch this year. Because it's a need.

My poor acer has been with me for 9 years, going 10 years. All of my friends went like, WTF?

Yes, my acer broked down twice. And i'm quite sure it's going to crash on me really soon.

Therefore, It's a need to save up. Because i know my parents/sisters won't pay a single cents for me.

Just like my DSLR! Oh well, my mom paid $100 for my camera though. :)

Okay, Be determined to save up trina!

This fear feels like it's instilled in me.

2010-03-31T22:57:00.002+08:00

I hate this feeling. I don't know why, recently I've been thinking so much about it.

Penny of thoughts huh? Yes.

Ever since ... I've been thinking a lot. Afraid of losing you in my life.

I really don't like the feeling of.. losing someone i love.

What's with the worry?

2010-03-31T20:14:00.001+08:00

2010-03-31T18:12:00.001+08:00

Afraid of losing someone you love?

Yes i am.

Yet i have no courage to tell him.

I'm another fool. Isn't it?

Alpha's chalet.

2010-03-31T00:26:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna to miss every single shopping outings. When Dawn and Bryan starts school.

Which means, we'll have lesser time for each other. D:

Gonna miss you all. ):

Alpha chalet was pretty much awesome. :)

Thanks bala for organising such an awesome chalet. You know, without his friend, we would be paying even more. So.. whatever is it, thanks for those who came. Making the chalet possible and memoriable. :)

The chalet was full of laughters because Kimleong has lots of endless jokes. Even when he's very tired, 0% energy, he still tried his best to make all of us laugh. Exactly like how he entertained me 2 years back in nat camp! Never change uh?

I wanted to sleep yesterday, but i realise i couldn't go to bed. I was staring blank, and thinking. For that 2 hours, was a good time of reflection. And, yup. Lots of crazy stuff. Imagine the guys was so steady that they even went to swim at what? 5am?! Hahaha. I went to the pool with them, took photo. Hoping time will pass faster.

And back to chalet, stone again. Hahaha. \o/ I'm a stonner.

Had truth or dare or rather, dare or dare.

You dont have a choice. They'll decide what you'll have to do when you get Aces Spade.

So, that moment, i was hoping not to get Aces Spade!

I was like, -.-ll caught getting an aces spade.

Which means, i'll have to dance bad romance. And bryan video-ed the whole process of me going crazy.

My god.. But, good time of laughing~ Because, i pulled zul's hair.

After the chalet, all of us was so tired.

We were so tired that we were in the K.O-ed mood.

After the chalet, accompanied Bryan to Tampines mall to check out his shoes and his mac book pro's cover.

But we were too early, and too tired to wait for the shops to open.

Head home straight. The East west journey was insane. Pack to the maxxxxx.

Even when a lady stepped on my toes, i didn't react until she turn and said sorry.

Too tired to react to everything~~

Goodnight!

I want a continuation of that dream i dreamt this afternoon!

New updated wish list..

2010-03-30T12:18:00.002+08:00

Alright, i shall not talk about how alpha chalet and stuff right now.

Right now, i'm more eager to update my new wishlist!

1. That Flora Jansport bag for school. (Need or a Want?)

2. My Macbook. (IT'S GOD DAMN A NEED)

3. Battery Grip (It's a want.)

4. 50mm F1.8 Lens(It's a want)

5. External Flash (It's a want)

For this month...

1. $40 for tickets for 2510.

2. $79 for that Jansport bag, that is big enough for my school!

I'll be happy to settle this 2 things by the end of my holidays. :))

It's amazing to have photography created on earth.

2010-03-29T00:15:00.003+08:00

Credits: Lightedpixel.

Brenda And Satish, is sucha loving couple.

Awww.. this photos makes me feel so :):)

Yipee Yipee!

Gahdam, I can't wait to get married.

I am crazy, Yes i am. :D

Don't you think, being with your love one everyday is a blessing?

Alright, shall not think about getting married anymore, there's 7 more years to my ideal age to get married.

What's more, i have not complete my studies, i have not work.

Income is unstable and shitty stuff.

Oh yes! I thought of getting a fish eye lens for my DSLR.

But well, for now, i wanna settle my 25-10 anniversary tickets before i spend more.

And also, i wanna get a new bag for school. Bagpack!

Gah, save money. save money.

Be determined!

Goodnight people.

Alpha chalet is tonight!

Charissa's crazy pledge.

2010-03-27T01:00:00.001+08:00

Charissa's Pledge: I from the one and only soul sistas crew pledge alligance to all our homies from our cribs,to be crazy only in the night and come up with silly ryhmes to annoy the shit out of other members. We will be fully prepared for any upcoming battle,battle of what you ask,the battle between sista hood. And will kick the ass of whoever that surpasses our way,and kiss the feet of others who love us for who we are. WE ARE THE 3EMO-MUSKETEERS.

PS: if you kiss someone's feet. please brush your teeth.

ILOVEYOUGUYS.

2010-03-27T00:26:00.005+08:00

Funny to see shasha drunk,

Funny conversations,

Funny people,

ILUPDUPYOUALL.

Tell me how much you love her.

2010-03-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

Guys out there, who thinks that they can friggin fool around with our feelings, you better watch it.

Whatever comes around goes around. The amount of hurt you've given to whoever, that fucking amount of hurt will come back to you once again.

I never want to see this kind of guy messing around with my girlfies at all.

_l_ you guys out there. FUCK YOU ALL.

A Fun and Exciting Class Chalet huh?

2010-03-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm glad I'm back from class chalet.

The class chalet was, disastrous. I have never encounter a chalet with so many drunkards. And, classmates encountered those spirits. But well, it's up to us, to believe it or not. Because we didn't saw it ourselves. So we can't say anything. Honestly, at one point of time, i thought of cabbing home. But I didn't because Charissa, Kristina, Shasha, Nadiah, Brandon and Jasmie was there. It's like, the 8 of us including Aret was taking care of those drunkards the whole time. And, yes.. They got themselves so drunk that they don't even know what they are doing. D:

It's really scary to see them get so drunk and quarreling in the middle of the night. Really bad one.

Was wide awake the whole morning, trying to ensure that there won't be anything happening. You know, sometimes, people got so drunk that they don't even know about their own action and stuff. The worst thing is, chalet has 2nd level. I was so afraid that those who were drunk would roll down the stairs. Seriously. My god.

Even Brandon, hahahaha. smelling Iskandar's vomit even when he's asleep. When he's sleeping, iskandar jumped up to vomit, brandon would wake up to cover his ears. It's hilarious to see him doing that. I swear.

Anyway,

It was awesome to have bem, alyssa, nicole, charissa, nadiah, kristina, shasha, jasmie, brandon, cyntherea around. You guys = (Y)!

Crazy comes with you. Lupdup you all!

Goodnight. I love you.

my bed is calling!

2010-03-25T11:32:00.002+08:00

class chalet was a disaster.
But nevertheless, it was fun with Bem, alyssa, nic, charissa, Kris, Nad, Shasha, Brandon. :D
Especially, the part when Shasha was completely drunk. It was mad crazy. A detailed post later when Ireplenish my sleep! It's crazy taking care of drunkards. I swear it's not easy. It's very very tiring.
Alright, time for bed. Be back soon! Night!

I.AM.GOING.TO.MISS.YOU!

2010-03-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

For the next 3 days,

i'll be away for my class chalet.

TEXTMETEXTME.CAUSEIWILLBEMISSINGYOU. :D

Your fight is my fight.

2010-03-23T01:23:00.004+08:00

Justin Bieber - Common Denominator.

It fills the air,
And I fall in love with you,
All over again,
Ooh,
You're the light that faced the sun,
In my world,
I'd face a thousand years of pain
For my girl.

Out of all the things in life,
That I could fear,
Uh
The only thing that would hurt me,
Is if you weren't here,
Woah

I don't want to go back
To just being one half of the equation
You understand what I'm sayin'?

Girl with out you I'm lost
Can't face this focus at heart
Between me and love
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh
You're the common denominator, oh, yeah, woah

Before your love was low
Now you're just my height, aye
We chase the game that would put
My cot in the side

Broken heart rise up to say
Love is alive
You and I would stand
To be multiplied, yeah

Out of all the things in life,
That I could fear,
Uh
The only thing that would hurt me,
Is if you weren't here,
Woah

I don't want to go back
To just being one half of the equation
You understand what I'm sayin'?

Girl with out you I'm lost
Can't face this focus at heart
Between me and love
You're the common denominator, oh, oh, ohh, oh
You're the common denominator, oh, yeah, woah

I'm never ever not,
Without your touch,
Every kiss that you give,
It gives me heart,
And to all the heart it can,
Jealous females hate it,
I'ma hold it down for you,

For you, woah, oh woah,
Common denominator,
Oh, yeah, woahh,
I don't wanna to go back,
Half of the equation, woah woah yeah,
Common denominator
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
Common denominator
Oh, yeah, woah

Just a fraction of your love fills the air
And I'd fall in love with you all over again yeah

Tell me how..

2010-03-23T01:08:00.002+08:00

How hard it is to stop the heart from loving?

As much as hard to stop the eye from blinking

The more you control it,

the more it hurts.

I miss my best friend.

2010-03-23T00:58:00.003+08:00

Trust me, i really miss you.

I miss you being irritating, i miss you being here talking to me.

You know, best friend is there whenever you need him/her. It's true. I know if he's here in singapore, he will definitely use his irritating-ness to cheer me up. Make me laugh.

The time difference of singapore and USA is way too big, we're unable to contact because of the time difference. If hadn't the time difference, i would definitely skype with him all day.

Come back soon, best friend. Trina miss you so much, she really mean it. D':

I can't stay at home all day to talk to you, because i had an appointment with my friends the other day. I'm sorry..

thanks for being here with me all these while when i needed you,

thanks for being here to listen to my sorrows,

thanks for being here for me all these while. :D

2010-03-23T00:56:00.002+08:00

Can you believe, TRINA is freezing in her room, because she is wearing a tank top in her air-coned room?

Fuck this shit. Fuck my life.

2010-03-22T23:32:00.006+08:00

My daily allowance is $12 per day.

$12 includes lunch, and also it includes my fucking expensive art materials. Yes i spend a lot of money.

Do you think i wanna spend like at least $500 on my fucking art materials? I could have used that money for my camera lens, my obsessions. But hey, how says $12 is a lot when i fucking need to use them to buy those drawing blocks, and those stuff? And i see no point explaining so much to you. Bloody fucker, in the first place. Fucking check your wallet and think where the fuck your money ran before you come to me and claim that i took your fucking money. Don't fucking tell me sorry after you recalled where your fucking 20bucks went.

And yes,

do you know what i upset and angry with?

I QUARREL WITH MY SISTER BECAUSE OF $3.80.

Yes, laugh all you want. I don't know what the fuck's wrong with her.

Fucking stop going to my drawer and take my money. I'm blogging this is not to let you feel paiseh about it.

BUT I AM BLOGGING BECAUSE I'M FUCKING QUARRELING WITH YOU BECAUSE OF $3.80.

I AM POOR.

I AM SORRY FOR NOT BEING A RICH SISTER.

I AM WRONG FOR BORROWING MONEY FROM YOU.

OH, SORRY FOR PAYING YOU COINS.

I'M DEFINITELY NOT PAISEH ABOUT IT. BECAUSE I AM REALLY BROKE.

AND, I DON'T THINK I AM A FUCKING SPOILT CHILD ALTHOUGH I AM THE YOUNGEST.

One, i don't ask my parents for money for my personal desires.

Two, i don't ask them to pay anything if i can afford them.

Three, things that are unaffordable, i won't even thing about it.

Four, i fucking saved up for my personal desires.

Five, i don't watch movies because i feel that movies is a waste of money.

Six, i saved up for my fucking hobby.

Seven, i don't get you to pay anything, except for the $3.80.

SO IF MY PARENTS DIDN'T COMPLAIN, WHY ARE YOU HELLA COMPLAINING?

I AM IN MY OWN HEADPHONE WORLD.

GOODBYE. FUCK MY LIFE. FUCK ME. FUCK EVERYTHING IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

Burn Sunday Burn

2010-03-21T23:45:00.004+08:00

Musical Rehearsal for 25-10 Anniversary burnt my sunday.

Time past so fast that we run thru 2-3 times only. But well, i think it's getting better.. except for our stunts.

We didn't manage to get our stunts up though. Stunts that we used to be able to do it smoothly are the stunts that we can't do it anymore. We need more practice, definitely. Gonna make it a success no matter what!!

I don't know why, but i felt extremely drained. I need plenty of rest. Like i said, this coming week is gonna to be hectic. Alright, Trina shall go to bed now! She's not in her best mood and she's bloody having her cramp. It's so @#$%^&()(*&^%$#@!!! I want my joy of my life to cheer me up. I dont know what i want, but i just want someone to be there.. to talk to me.

And, i know, no one's gonna to there.

Go to bed now trina. Sleep your worries away.

Goodnight world, i hope tomorrow's gonna to be a better day.

Obsessions.

2010-03-21T00:18:00.012+08:00

Can you believe? It's freaking 3am in the morning, and i'm like blogging/uploading/editing some photos. It's insane i know. But these polaroid/photos makes me really happy, because the 2 joys of my life are inside them. :D

Yes, Shoes above, is all 3 that i bought today, to welcome my 3 weeks holiday. Does it mean that one week = 1 pair of shoes? Hell no! But yes, i have the urge to spend on shoes, that's why i'm spending so much on shoes. But hmmm, For a pair of heel, it's a want it's not a need though. But hey, it's cheap! All the 3 shoes i bought is like, on sales and not of the original price. :D

Outings with Bryan and Dawn and will never be bored. Because half the time we're like, photospamming, keeping ourself entertained. :)) It's awesome.

I'm going to turn my notice board to a polaroid board instead. Hahaha. YES I AM!! :))

I'm so happy with the polaroids. I'm just gonna to save up to get the films. Spam photos and make my polaroid notice board. Yay, new shoes, new shoes!

& Thanks, kind soul, for helping me to tag the photos. & also flooding the whole of my FB while i was rotating the photos.

Good job trina! You've cleared the photos that are supposed to be upload/tag/rotated and transfered to portable harddisk! :)) Worry no more, go catch your sleep before you die during your rehearsal tomorrow!! :D

Next week...

Mon, meeting ally and bem to spotlight for our toyRus bag decorations.

Tues, going down to the hospital, grandma's having an operation.

Wed-Fri, Class Chalet.

Sat, REST.REST.REST.

Sun, On site 25-10 anniversary rehearsal.

Following week...

Mon-Tues, Alpha Chalet.

It's gonna to be helly exciting!! :))

Goodnight, i really need to go to bed like now!

Rehearsal tomorrow is going to burn my sunday. D:

let it go.

2010-03-20T10:50:00.002+08:00

If you have the heart, you wouldn't do this shit. It's okay, Trina. Let it go. Let it go..
So not in the mood for every single thing.
Holidays ain't holidays. One, so what if it's holiday? We're still bombarded with all the re-dos anyway. I have a total of 10. And one A3 drawing is Damn time consuming. Two, rebels are so not going to meet up as 5. Because, moron and Siwei's having school while we're having holidays. Three, good job, holidays come, Trina broke.
But holidays, the only things I look forward to is class chalet and alpha chalet and our genting trip. :D

2010-03-20T09:40:00.000+08:00

keep all of those high hopes to yourself.

2010-03-19T22:51:00.001+08:00

2010-03-19T20:35:00.001+08:00

hello love, i love you.

sometimes, good times passes by so quickly.

Good times doesn't last long. But hoping that each day will be alright..

2010-03-19T19:42:00.001+08:00

HOLIDAYS, MORE THAN READY!!

Marriage.

2010-03-19T18:09:00.001+08:00

I wanna get married with the one I love and the one who loves me by 25 years old.

And, Bem is so getting married next year lah. Hahahaha. Powerful. (:

SALUTE TO BEM!

imisscarolynchiaweiling):

2010-03-15T21:56:00.012+08:00

Yes, I miss Carolyn Chia Wei Ling so much.

It's like less than a month, and.. i miss her like hell already. )):

Let this moment stay forever..

2010-03-15T21:56:00.011+08:00

I want happy moments to stay forever.

Happy birthday Jeff! Hope you enjoy the day! :))

And, I love my polaroid photos. :))

iLOVEyou.

2010-03-15T21:56:00.010+08:00

-iloveyou-

Okay, school is .. pretty much awesome these days.

You know, crazy people, crazy topics everyday, and also, my spastic budday. :)

It's just .. My mind is turned off for school. You know, it's tiring to travel all the way from tampines to sembawang and then sembawang back to tampines. I am tired, i am really really tired.

I haven't been *steady* with them to hang out late because i am really tired. If i were alittle more hype, i would join them for sure, laughing my ass and making noise all the time. Heh.

Got home, obviously, dad's Menopause is bad.

I went out after dinner to get chinese ink and my polaroid films. Before i went out, My dad was so damn irritating. Because he was scolding me, asking why am i spending so much money and stuff. I told him, that if i could stay at home and rest i would. But it's because i have no choice but to go out to get the chinese ink. He went on and on saying if i continue to talk back, he's going to beat me and stuff. In my heart i was like, FUCK menopause. Seriously.. I really cannot stand it. Like i said, i never like people to question what i do when i know what i am doing. All i need is your support and not your unreasonable scoldings. My parents went out, and came back quarreling. It was nonsensical.

Just because my mom wants to drive the car out and fetch grandpa to the doctors', he's making a big fuss. HOW WOULD HE FEEL IF MY MOM DON'T ALLOW HIM TO FETCH MY GRANDMA TO THE DOCTORS'?! It's the fucking same feeling. Seriously, nothing from his mouth is awesome.

GAH, whatever lah. I'm just gonna to do my work, and concentrate on what i'm doing and heck everything.

I... I don't know how the hell i should be feeling.

He can make me feel happy, he can make me feel disappointed, he can make me feel angry, he can make me feel really sad, he can make me feel anxious, he can make me feel nervous.

It seem like, he has the ability to control my emotions. I don't know why, but yes.

He has the key to my heart already. I don't know why, but days when i was really moody, His name appearing, my heart start smiling.

Sometimes, i don't know how long will this feeling stay.

Will it stay forever? Or is it temporary? Forever doesn't seem to be happening in my life.

FML YES, FML.

Gonna meet Ann and Jeff for dinner tomorrow. :))

Celebrating Jeff's birthday tomorrow! ((:

-Goodnight, amour-

2010-03-15T21:56:00.009+08:00

트리나 사랑 브라이언

Self-declare or not to self-declare?

2010-03-15T21:56:00.007+08:00

Had napfa test today. It was seriously a killer.

I am really feeling damn sleepy now. I went into the stoned mood already. ):

But well,

PROMISED Kristina to go to school and i shall go. :)

Because Trina will not leave Spastic budday alone in school!!

Then, She put her fb status:

Kristina Chua AWWWW...TRINA IS SO SWEEEEEET.I LUB DUB LUB DUB YOU LOTS LOTS WORHX!!♥ HAHAHAHHAHAHA

School days like that will never get bored, but of course, energy will drain out easily.

Trina shall sleep early tonight. Not to think so much.

I'm feeeling pretty moody now. Probably because I am not having sufficient sleep these days.

&& it seemed like you don't care about me anymore. I really miss you. I was hoping that it was you.

But sad enough, it wasn't.

Screw Every thing that's happening right now.

2010-03-15T21:56:00.006+08:00

I am feeling tired. I am feeling upset. I am feeling pissed off.

I can't wait for holidays to come. I need a break. For myself, for everything. I hate it when i got home, and then i got scolded unreasonably. What's with all the scoldings? You know, i hate it when i get home after a long day, and i still have to get scolded from you. I'm not someone who can entertain all this shit. I can't entertain you anymore. Each time when you flare, i would too. I'm going to heck it already. Way too unreasonable.

You think i want to smell lacquer? I just want to fucking fix my drawings and get my grades. Not to smell the shit. Seriously, people do things for a reason. Don't question what i do.

Dad, just give me your support in everything i do, that could be the greatest gift in my life. No to be there to pull me down when i am trying to achieve things in life. It's seriously way too nonsensical. =/

And, To that bastard.

Who are you to say adam's a gay? I love him for who he is. Jolly well STFU.

AND, even he's a gay, he is much talented that you, much hotter than you, much handsome than you.

SO. SHUT THE HELL UP BLOODY ASS HOLE.

Napfa tomorrow, It's sure to be a killer.

Goodnight, I shall go to bed soon.

tomorrow may be a better day, i hope.

ILOVEADAM.

2010-03-15T21:56:00.002+08:00

DEAR ADAM,

TRINA LOVE YOUR SEXY EYES AND SEXY VOICE.

Photos...

2010-03-15T00:39:00.004+08:00

i love photos

Polaroid is with PX now!

Can't wait to take photos during the holidays! :))

Don't give up, Just give in.

2010-03-15T00:37:00.002+08:00

Can't wait for school!!

2010-03-14T00:29:00.002+08:00

Alright, Everyday after our orchard go crazy outing, i can't wait for school! :))

Yes, Right now, I need some of Bem's craziness, some of Alyssa's funny jokes and last but not least, my spastic buddies! :)) I can't stop blogging photos. <3>

Anyway, we're going for gym tomorrow. Then to get our art materials at daiso! Yay, I can't wait for school on monday. Hehehehe! Especially, holidays and class chalet! Omg, it's sure to be a blast!

See you tomorrow, during gym session. :))

Goodnight,

Trina's off to sleep!

Yay, tomorow's gonna to be awesome!(:

2010-03-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

24-26 March: Class Chalet.

29-30 March: Nat Camp Chalet.

7-9 April: Genting Trip.

Woohooo.. Awesome holiday! Me like it times a thousand times! :))

After so long...

2010-03-13T23:37:00.001+08:00

Yay, finally getting one of them.

From Px's cousin. Yes, i bought a secondhand one. :))

Since she said, it's tip-topped condition, why not? (:

Yes, Holidays with polaroid is gonna to be (Y)(Y)!!

Sisters.

2010-03-13T23:01:00.001+08:00

I really wonder 10 years later, how will we be like? I wonder if by then, I'm already starting my own family with my love one? Hahaha.

Awww.. How sweet? I wanna get married in 10 years time!!

Rich yet Stingy?

2010-03-10T16:55:00.016+08:00

This is not all!! There'll be more when Jasmie and Nurul and Brandyy uploads! ((:

Thanks people for the awesome day. It is definitely a fruitful day spent with you all.

Awesome day too! Lots of laughters and crappy stuff! Hehehe.

Can't wait for class chalet. More crazy photos for sure! Gonna spam like no tomorrow during class chalet! We talked about a lot of things in school. The on going stuff, and yes. Some people deserve what they got. Seriously..

Here with me, Bemily, the uper horny and corny girlfriend ever. ((:

She's awesomely funny. Days in school with her around are .. ROFL!

Yes! I don't like the idea of *recycling of BFs*. It happened everywhere. Every where in the world has bitches around. And people like that doesn't deserve our respect or pity. And I hate to entertain this bitches. You want to date someone, go ahead and date. No one is stopping you. But hey, think about it, what comes around goes around. Wait till one day, when it happens to you, don't complain. Because you do that to others too.

Bem and I was talking about some sensitive stuff. Won't elaborate much.

But yes, to be honest, no one plans to have _____. Only you do. Why are you planning it when you know he's yours? Hahaha. It shows how insecure you are with him. Right? And, it eventually failed. Just like how failed blog failed. :))

And, please, why are you so stingy when you're so rich? What do you mean by: aiya, you all cannot afford one lah?

Oh come on, what's the point of being rich when you're so stingy lah seriously? 3 pieces of printed paper cost 3000 cartridges of ink is it? Oh well, if you're stingy with the 3 pieces of printed paper, then you can go suck balls man, seriously.

Okay, you're rich and you don't care to share. It's okay. :))

DO NOT COME BACK TO US WHEN YOU NEED US. TYVM. I'll appreciate when you don't even come back to us. :))

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but meant nothing to him. (Originally from FAFA.)

It's so true.

He mean everything to me, but i felt like i mean nothing to you.

Guys are so insensitive about things. I hate it.

I can't wait to finish my studies, get into the working life.

Get married and love my husband. Yessss I am crazy.

But, whenever i see wedding photos, the more i wanna get married with the one i love and the one who loves me.

Where are you?

Chalets.

2010-03-10T16:55:00.015+08:00

TERM BREAK IS MEANT FOR CHALET? :))

1. CLASS CHALET (24-26TH MARCH)

2. ALPHA CHALET (29TH-30TH MARCH)

YES! ME LOVE CHALET!

-YES! IT'S GONNA TO BE EXTREMELY EXCITING!-

What's going on?

2010-03-10T16:55:00.014+08:00

Life is so short, Too short to even have regrets in life.

Treasure what I have and not regretting those times that have past.

2010-03-10T16:55:00.013+08:00

1 year ago, i wanted to get this.

1 year later, i haven't get it yet.

After one year later, Trina still decided to get it. Because this spree that I saw recently, inclusive of all the postages and stuff, my polaroid cost about: $103.74.

Still thinking whether I should get it or not. Because it's like, i wanted for a long time.

And the thing i'm worried about is that, after i get it, i won't be using it often because films are expenhusive ttm!

If only my sister can sponsor half of this... Trina would be awesomely happy about it. Hahahaha.

Spastic/Smiley Partner never fail to make me smile.

2010-03-10T16:55:00.012+08:00

KEEP ME ROLLING ON THE FLOOR AND LAUGH.

2010-03-10T16:55:00.009+08:00

Love is being stupid together. - Paul Valery

2010-03-10T16:55:00.008+08:00

Family & friends,

TRINA LOVE YOU. (:

I miss you all. ):

ME WANNA GO SENTOSA!!

2010-03-10T16:55:00.002+08:00

Perfect guys don't exist,

BUT there is always one guy that is perfect for you.

And in my life, that you.

You make me smile, you make me laugh. Only you have the ability to do that.

Guilty!

2010-03-10T11:57:00.000+08:00

okay,
I didnt go to school today! Sad that I couldn't make it for school today. Cause luis lesson is Damn important. Like, seriously, one lesson is a lot of things we can learn in the drawing. But even though it's boring. but of all the lessons, the one I hate to miss the most is drawing fundamental. Can see that because Trina Is so stupid to choose POA as her Damn combination, therefore she's like lagging behind and stuff like that. Which sucks okay. My god. I hate it!!
Anyway, I'm going out to meet Siwei for lunch. And then study together later! :)
I miss her a lot because that's the only time we can hang out together. Timetable clashes.. That's why we can't meet that often. ):

2010-03-09T20:49:00.002+08:00

Everything that Kristina Chua say is tempting me.

1. SHOPPING.

2. SHOP LIKE NO TOMMORROW.

3. CHICAGO CHEESECAKE.

4. OREO CHEESECAKE.

SICK.

2010-03-09T20:33:00.002+08:00

I'm officially sick..

Sore throat and block nose is killing me. Yes it is. I swear I can't breath properly right now.

It's killing me. It's killing me. I swear it's killing me!

During Sec sch, I'll be more than happy to declare MC. But now, i feel the urge to go to school, trying not to miss out anything from school. Even for homework, i stayed up late to finish them. It's a total change in me i guess? I never do my homework in the past, except for maths and combine humans.

Arg arg.

Should I or should I not go to school tomorrow? Yes or No? Yay Or Nay? ):

Skip or not to skip Luis class?!

One in the million.

2010-03-08T21:28:00.005+08:00

Interesting iPhone application that Theresa's iPhone has!

You're one in a million

You're once in a lifetime

You made me discover all the stars above us

I want this romance to last forever. Please. Let it last forever.

2010-03-08T19:58:00.000+08:00

I want this moment to last, forever.

CAN'T HELPED BUT BE READY FOR THE ARRIVAL OF TERM BREAK. ((:

2010-03-07T23:58:00.003+08:00

You know,

Sometimes, people are just insensitive about words. It's not meant to hurt anyone. But some words are really not meant to be spoken at all. Some people are just way too insensitive that when they speak about certain things, they don't even realized that they are actually hurting the other people. It's not about whether to be sensitive or not, but some people do things on purpose. And that's the worst of all. You know, those people who do use words to hurt people are those who are super insensitive.

Anyway, nothing happened to me.

But this image from tumblr reminds me of some insensitive people/guys who went round saying things that hurt so badly. Decided to blog this.

Heh. Trina is Happy today. ((:

Had rehearsal today! And rehearsal wasn't as bad as i thought. Because rehearsal was quite enjoyable except the part where we did the double base extension, Joleen's Arse fell and sat on my head. And during the training, she fell and stepped on my collar bone. Which hurts a thousand times. Haha! But it's enjoyable to have stuns and popping her up!

And guess what?! Winson even tried to be a flyer! OMG, YES. However, it wasn't a successful one though. He didn't really stand up straight. Didn't have a second try because we were rushing for dinner. BUT!! WE'RE SO GONNA POP HIM ON THE NEXT REHEARSAL. HAHAHA.

&& the happiest thing when i got home is,

T: Mom, do you want to come and support me on 17th April? But the ticket is 50bucks per person though. *SMILES*

M: Wah, the ticket so expensive lea. Got president go is it?

D: DON'T WANT LAH. GO FOR WHAT WASTE MONEY. SIAO 50 DOLLAR LEA.

T: *rolls* You can't have the chance to see me on stage performing every time okayyy.

M: Maybe lah. See how lor. But wah, so expensive lea!

T: Got banquet dinner ma. So that's why it's expensive.. SOME MORE YOUR DAUGHTER ME, IS PERFORMING! :)) NEED TO PAY ENTRY FEES HOR.

M: YAH~YAH~

Shortly,

My cute mom text me, when she's like outside the living room. She asked, ah bee(Stef) going? I went like calling for Stef, eh go lea. Mom's paying for you lea! You can hardly see TRINA YOUR SISTER PERFORMING OKAY. hahaha. Some more is so damn ex. Please confirm if you're going.

*She ignore me though*

Then after several sms, my mom came in the room,

Okay lah okay lah. I going, ah bee also going. She willingly volunteered Stef to go.

I went like, Wooohoo!! Cool or what!! First time my mom's going to see me perform on stage. :))

Having your family's support can be really :))

Sometimes, in life having your family's fullest support in all the things you do can be awesome.

Although it's really hard work and time I've committed in this musical, It's worth it because my mom and sister is coming. At least, I'm going this for a reason. Thanks mom for being such a supportive mom all these while.

Coming back to those piley assignments: I'm still left with 3 more thumbnails, and 1 more *safety starts with me* and I'm done!! :))

-Goodnight-

^^ TRINA IS HAPPY TODAY!

P.S: "Don't be afraid to give up the good for the great." ~ Kenny Rogers

Something's missing!!

2010-03-06T23:41:00.010+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTINA!

Hope you enjoyed yourself with the flour/cake/egg smashing. :))

Alright, i think our class has constant photo takings. Which is good and awesome!

Heh, Thursday was so damn awesome. (Y)!

Running around the whole 2.4km route, chasing Kris, throwing flour, smashing 1/4 of the cake on her face, and throwing eggs at her!! It's so friggin fun man. Yes it is.

And the good thing is, Bem and myself were saying.

Good thing our birthday falls on holidays/weekends. If not, I'm sure there'll be revenge! hahaha.

And, anyway, Kris birthday was the day when i got my smiley! :)

I feel the pain, but bearable. And i fulfilled my dream on getting my smiley!

Finally, AFTER 1 YEAR OR SO. When I broke the news to Pearly, she went like, yah yah, right.

Don't try to crap with me. And I met her at Cause way and showed her. She was so amazed. Because sometimes i say things that i don't do.

-TGIF-

And yes, I do thank God for these girls being around with me for the past 5 years.

It's really awesome to have them in my life, being there for me. Always been there for me no matter what. You know, you girls are the closest girlfies ever. No one could ever replace you all in my heart. Secondary school days are so memorable that I'll make them be like a tattoo that can never be erased. Ever since ITE life started, we never fail to meet each other even though we have many assignments and for siwei is tons of homework/revision to do.

Thank you girls, for being in my life thru it all.

Yes, kite flying was a failure again. Not really a failure, but Yes, our kite nearly caused car crashing. Hahaha. The kite flew and dropped in the middle of the road and nearly cause an accident. The 3 of our expression is damn classic, we went like, "omg omg omg. Dropping already. Ahhh!! Ahhh..!! SHIT! IT'S ON THE ROAD. OMG. hahaha." I didn't know kite could cause car crashing! LOL.

And, that's like the 2nd time Siwei and me had steamboat. For now, SAY NO TO STEAMBOAT!

Today,

was a lazy saturday that feels exactly like a sunday. I don't know why too. I was lazying on my bed and don't feel like waking up and stuff like that. Totally don't look forward to saturday.):

Sometimes I don't know how to control my emotions that well. It feels like, i can be really happy for a moment and a total change in awhile's time. Which Sucks totally. ):

Recently, I felt so no life. Because one of the days last week, I was reflecting on my past 2 months of 2010. And i realized that my January and February is total crap. Assignments that I've done is done without any effort at all. I need to instill the discipline in me. No more having fun. It's a need to buck this shit up. Catch up with the rest. No more playing anymore. I'm really going to work extra hard than the rest. I'll go home after school everyday from now on. No more hang outs at tampines/safra or wherever. I see the suckiness in myself, because I didn't take art as my combination, and therefore, now I'm struggling. And it's not fun to be lack behind and struggling.

TRINA IS GONNA BUCK HER SHIT UP. YES TRINA IS. :))

SMILE TRINA. YOU'RE NOT THE WORSE, YOU SHOULD JUST BE 10X HARDWORKING THAN OTHERS. :))

GOODNIGHT. REHEARSAL TOMORROW. T.T

5 MORE WEEKS!! YES!! CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO COME TO AN END!!

2010-03-04T10:16:00.000+08:00

SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT PIERCE MY SMILEY?

2010-03-03T17:51:00.002+08:00

This innocent is brilliant, i hope that it will stay, this moments is perfect, please don't go away, i need you now. & i'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by.

Screen Shot:

2010-03-03T01:04:00.002+08:00

THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I SCREEN SHOT EVERYTHING AND POSTED INTO THE MY BLOG.

SERIOUSLY, HE'S 22 AND HE'S SO IMMATURE. ==''

ANYWAY, IT'S 1AM ALREADY. TOMORROW THERE'S LUIS CLASS.

I'M SO EFFING SHAG ALREADY!! FUN DAY TOMORROW~

HAHAHA. WE SHALL SEE HOW THE HELL HE'LL FACE US LATER!

BEWARE, RAPIST.

2010-03-02T22:52:00.013+08:00

JASMIE'S STATUS:

HAHAHAHA. LOOK, LAUGH, ENJOY!!

that's not the end!

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?v=feed&story_fbid=337970099451&id=641137219

this is the full one!! omg.

hahahaha. 120 comments and it's ongoing!

Kristina's STATUS:

MAD RUSH.

2010-03-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

It's freaking near to 1 am! And i just finished my colour wheel!!

When there's 2 more A3 sketches and collages!! Please kill me, seriously.

I'll bring my magazine tomorrow and do them in school!

*PROMISE.*

GOODNIGHT WORLD! I'M MAD TIRED.

2010-02-28T01:56:00.001+08:00

This..

is..

me..

to..

YOU!

Yay.

2010-02-28T01:47:00.002+08:00

I BOUGHT Love STORIES (disc of 6)!

So in love with it, and happy copying the songs into itunes!

Trina is happily enjoying those songs. :D

ENJOY.HAPPY.LOVE.

Live my life to the fullest, not regretting everyday.

No one's gonna screw her life up.

If anyone screw hers, she will screw the other's back.

a promise to herself,

to be happy everyday.

Pierced!

2010-02-28T01:17:00.008+08:00

OMGG.

Trina is so daring for once. hahaha.

No pain, no gain!

YES TO SMILEY. I AM A SMILEY GIRL WHO OWNS A SMILEY. :)

Hi March, Bye Feb!

2010-02-28T01:17:00.007+08:00

Hellooooo March!

I'm here to procrastinate, many assignments are due, but still undone.

What's this? Trina! Can you please wake up your idea? *Slap myself with reality.*

I know if I don't start working hard, i'll be the one who's suffering. Sometimes, even when I'm saying here, i will not do it. But honestly, i shall start doing my reading soon. For real. I am going to start my reading!! Teehee.. But for now, ASSIGNMENTS CLEARING COMES FIRST. I hate drawing buildings omg, sucks to the max. It totally feels like.. shit! Sometimes i feel so inferior because I'm not good in drawing, i sucks at drawing and I'm so lazy to be hardworking to catch up with the rest. Sometimes, i asked myself, what the heck am i thinking? Why am i so lazy and complacent recently? WHY? WHY?

But well, i seriously need to start working hard both practical and theoretical. Drawing fundamentals is the most basic, if i don't hit 3.5-4.0 for my GPA, then no hope poly in 2 years time. Come on, Trina. 3 more weeks and term break will start. Stop being lazy will you? GAH. WHERE'S MY MOTIVATION? WHERE WHERE WHERE? ):

Okay, so, during the 3 weeks of my holidays, TRINA will stay at home and do her work, stay at home and read up, digest those books. CATCH up with the rest, those good ones.

I miss miss you.

Thank you for the best part of you being in my life. I LOVE YOU.

SSF FTW!!

2010-02-28T01:17:00.006+08:00

I spent my friday and saturday with my dearest secondary school mates. It's always as awesome as ever.. :) Thanks for the day, although, we didn't have the chance to fly kite because it ended up raining. But we'll do it again on next friday! We'll success one day! Yay steamboaty next week after kite flying. :D

It's so awesome to talk about our life. There's no secret between us. And although we quarrel, we made up soon after that. :D For whatever reasons, i felt really really sad that we couldn't be in the same school already. Girls, i love you. Thanks for being such awesome friends who know me inside out. We're crazy and we're wild. I must say, months without you all, I really miss you all. Those recess, and those on-ness. Those good times we had, were so memorable and awesome. I will never never forget them for sure. <3>

These days, I feel really tired.

Seems like, even 3 weeks holiday ain't enough. I'm going to genting with my family during my holidays! Yay, theme park oh theme park! <3

Miss me miss me miss me. Because i miss you miss you miss you.

I don't care how you think of me.

I don't care if you ignore me anymore.

I really have no energy to care about any shit anymore.

Whatever you think, Trina is a bitch in your eyes anyway.

Trina shall keep herself shut at all times.

Trina shall not be affected.

It's time for a change, Trina.

Life goes on and on. Time stops for no one.

2010-02-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

Forget it, it's like I'm the worst friend ever.

savesavesave.

2010-02-24T23:11:00.004+08:00

I AM GOING TO SAVE UP FOR SHOPPING.

&& I WANT TO BUY A NEW SHOE TO REPLACE MY SUPER OLD PONY.

&&& I WANT TO GET MY PAIR OF SPECS TOMORROW.

&&&& I WANT TO GO SHOPPING.

Of course you can trust me.

2010-02-24T23:11:00.003+08:00

I'm not as strong as you thought.

Those days when you're ignorant towards me are days i feel so upset and dejected.

I don't need a perfect man in my life, all i need is you being able to love me, care for me, be there for me. Just be there with me, that would be the greatest gift.

What happened?

2010-02-24T23:11:00.002+08:00

What happened to my super perfect eye-sight?

I feel so blinded by things now.

I should go for eye-check up like soon.... ):

I don't want history to repeat..

2010-02-24T21:14:00.002+08:00

I don't want to lose you like how i lose him.

Fuck every big and small things in life.

2010-02-23T22:58:00.004+08:00

Where are you when i needed you? Where is my comfort i needed from you? Why aren't you here with me? Could you ... show a little more concerns to me? I would be happy if you're the one who text me. I will jump around with happiness when i saw your name in my inbox. Why each time when i love that someone, he will eventually leave me someday? Get the hell out of my life.

You used to be my comfort. Whenever I'm down, you're always here for me. However, things are different now. The days we used to talk a lot, where are they? Why are they gone?

I have never felt so shit these days until today..

THE WORST DAY EVER..

One: Carolyn's leaving tomorrow. && I'm gonna to miss her hard.

Two: Tonight we had Carolyn farewell dinner as a whole. S did not appear. She said she very tired. Doesn't it mean that, when you're tired, you should be home straight after work? Why the fuck is she out and coming home later than me?

Three: I feel so drifted away from him. Because I feel so afraid of losing him. I realize the importance of him in my life. Without him, my life is like a mess.

Four: I bought books for my own reference. And it cost me $87.60

Five: I felt so disappointed with everything in life.

Six: Dad has been really unreasonable these days. Being really noisy when i needed peace. MENOPAUSE SUCK BALLS.

Seven: I feel fucking tired of everything. So sick of everything in life.

Eight: I love you, but do you even care? It seems like you don't anyway..

Paranoid.

2010-02-23T00:41:00.007+08:00

“I will act like everything’s okay,

I will smile like nothing’s wrong,

I will laugh like something’s funny,

and pretend you’re not hurting me…”

I am afraid, so afraid to lose you.

I don't know how long more i can hang on with this...

I need you, so muchh..

Cockroach

2010-02-22T14:00:00.001+08:00

I just screammmmmmmmmmed because there's this big big big big big cockroach in iMac Lab. ==''

iMac Day today.

2010-02-22T13:55:00.002+08:00

Omg i saw this hot guy from SC, he looks so much like Caucasian.

I went on and on screaming to Jasmie when we're at KFC for lunch just now.

T: HE'S MINE! OMG.

B: *He gave a shocking look.*

J: You siao ah?

T: hahaha. QUITE. BUT HE'S GOD DAMN HANDSOME FOR REAL. SERIOUS SHIT. HE'S MINE HE'S MINE!!

But well, in my heart, there's only you.

More than words..

2010-02-21T23:56:00.003+08:00

It's amazing when words explain how i feel.

2010-02-21T23:38:00.001+08:00

IF YOU'RE GOING TO LOVE ME, LOVE ME DEEPLY. IF YOU’RE GOING TO BREAK MY HEART, THEN BREAK IT ALL. IF YOU’RE GOING TO CARE, CARE FOR ME COMPLETELY. IF YOU DECIDE NOT TO HOLD ME, THEN JUST LET ME FALL. IF YOU’RE GOING TO STAY, THEN STAY FOREVER AND IF YOU WANT TO LEAVE, THEN DO IT TODAY. IF YOU’RE GOING TO CHANGE, CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. AND IF YOU’RE GOING TO TALK, PLEASE MEAN WHAT YOU SAY.

I saw this at Lemonore's Blog. And it's effing right.

Say goodbye to my dearest soon.

2010-02-21T22:23:00.007+08:00

Good times are times that passed quickly.

I still remember, back in 2009's June..

Maddie, Carolyn, Victor, Noelle, Karen, Michele, Stef and myself had fun at Kelong.

2009's Christmas..

Maddie who's already in Perth now..

The last gathering we had before Maddie went to Perth, the faraway land..

& yes, 2-3days time, it would be ...

My dearest's turn to go back to Perth Land, the Faraway land. ):

Thank you for all the good times. Especially times during my PE lessons.

I will miss you dearest. Because the times when you're in singapore, is the best days of my life.

Carolyn oh carolyn..

I miss you. I'll miss you a lot......

Gonna meet Carolyn for farewell dinner on tuesday before she leave on wednesday.

I hope my ITE-mates will join me on wednesday though.

However, even if they're not going, then it's okay. I'll still be there!! <3

Photo spamming on tuesday before Carolyn go back to that faraway land!

Mad love .... :)

Miss miss miss miss!

Waiting..

2010-02-21T17:34:00.001+08:00

I'm waiting for miracles to happen in my life.

That something isn't amazing to me, but it's your sincerity that will make me feel amazed.

Show me your sincerity, boy.

Revamped!

2010-02-21T17:13:00.002+08:00

Yay!! I spend my sunday afternoon with my family and then also changing blogskins! <3

Now that i know, my grandma is exactly like Empress Dowager.

It's either you obey her, or she malign you.

Anyway, it's just a small matter, and she went like malign stef. Poor stef.

Whatever..

Sometimes i don't know why, feel so -.-

So sick of everythingg.